Please please help what could this mean!??!?!?

ok i have had every symptom in the book (check my other questions) and then last week i took a hpt...got a FAINT FAINT blue line....went to the doctor she only gave me a PEE test (i asked for a blood test) she said the test was negative...then thursday i bought some FRER and thursday nigh when i took one i didn't really notice anything at that time but then itook another one friday morning and it said BFN when i went to throw away THURSDAY'S TEST is said BFP....faint but can still see it it is PINK....then sunday bought more...took them...took 3 nd ALL said BFN....but the control line is made of DOTS...and one is zig zags...is that normal???/..and then ontop of ALL of this...my cervix...i have been checking it..and lately i've been getting (just on my finger not in my panties sorry for TMI) this like...um..milky whitish looking discharge...what does that mean??? and then my cervix moves all over the place but it feels soft....but just one time it felthard...all the other times it has been soft...what could THAT mean??? anyone have any of this and get a BFP or am i just out of luck??? please ANYONE help me i am going crazy!!! what do you think this could be....am i pregnant or not??????